Friday, November 26, 2004

i love life after exams...i feel free...

free to do whatever i fancy...catch up with friends....

not to mention christmas is just round the corner...*hums merry christmas with love...*


the past week i have caught 2 movies so vastly different. one was a beautiful film about a man and a woman... such films are so rare... it was so thought-provoking and so sensitive. it was also very nice to be picking up subtle nuances that would resonate in the film...whether the script-writers wanted it there or not. i loved the movie...before sunset...and having watched before sunrise on vcd before...i appreciated their relationship even more...and i sort of half expected the ending...and i thought it was good.... finally a break away from the cliche happy ever after....

but not all will like it...i admit....to some..it will be a boring all talk and no action....considering its a 'romantic' movie about a man and a woman there's not even a kiss...i know some people who felt this way about it... but with all due respect.. these people are quite shallow...or just that they do not read into the more profound and deep stuff in those conversations...

but whatever you say...i love it...

back to topic..the other movie was bridget jones: the edge of reason....i read the book long time ago...so i vaguely knew what to expect...but i was suprised....it was just as hilarious as the first one! haha...had a great time laughing beside melody. it was really really funny....that bridget....she's the best...and mark darcy!! argh....he's just as gorgeous and charming...and more screen time! =) delighted....

time at home has been spent reading..or listening to clay's christmas album..which is doing SO well..gone platinum (means sold 1 million copies) in its debut week...no. 1 on the holiday charts...no. 4 on billboard albums chart..best selling christmas album since celine dion... it's a terrific album...just as good as celine's these are the special times...something u can enjoy year after year...people who are neutral about clay's music have grown to love this album...

other than that..online..doing stuff..chatting...and having Without A Trace DVD marathon... haha...without a trace...is a drama about FBI's missing persons unit...i am hooked!!! storylines just grip you...captivating...exciting...interesting.... love it love it...got melody hooked too when she came over to bathe after cycling at east coast...

just finished reading clay's book in 2 sittings...breaking for lunch. i took 3 hours... it was easy reading...his writing style is succinct...to the point..and painfully frank at times...and doing what he does best...his snarkiness...=) he offers his life lessons...from those people in his life...his mother...his estranged birth father..his strained relationship with his stepfather...his love for his step brother...the suicide of his half sister...all those kids who picked at him throughout school..how he tried to find his identity and not be afraid...the girls in his life that taught him lessons where he least expected it... his work at YMCA..his faith and relationship with the southern Baptist and God....working with children with autism...his dreams about teaching special education and becoming a high school principle...how he tried to adjust to life under the public eye..under scruntiny..under the screaming groups of his fans...the harsh differences between hollywood and small town Raleigh...

it was an eye opener to clay's life and his thoughts and his past. yes only fans and groupies and claymates...but it was a good read and my heart went out to him...when he talked about so painful issues...and when it got me thinking about my own life..my own parents...my childhood...my future...my faith...

it was therapeutic really...

and even if you're not a fan of clay....if u are free..just pick it up...it's easy to read...and you'll be amazed really...

ok...if u're gonna scorn and roll your eyes and go..."here she goes...claymate..talking about clay and trying to get you to love him..." fine...i really don't care about what people think anymore...i got tired of it... as long as i'm living right....i don't care...laugh all you want...at least i'm a happy girl...

Sleigh Ride by Clay Aiken

Album: Merry Christmas With Love

Just hear those sleigh bells jing-a-ling, ring-ting-ting-a-ling, too.
Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you.
Outside the snow is falling and friends are calling, "Yoo-hoo!"
Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you.

Giddy-yap, giddy-yap, giddy-yap, let's go,
Let's look at the show
We're riding in a wonderland of snow.
Giddy-yap, giddy-yap, giddy-yap, it's grand,
Just holding your hand.
We're gliding along with a song of a wintery fairyland.

Our cheeks are nice and rosy and comfy-cozy are we.
We're snuggled up together like two birds of a feather would be.
Let's take that road before us and sing a chorus or two.
Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you.

There's a birthday party at the home of Farmer Gray.
It'll be the perfect ending of a perfect day.
We'll be singing the songs we love to sing without a single stop,
By the fireplace while we watch the chestnuts pop.

There's a happy feeling nothing in the world can buy,
When they pass around the turkey and the pumpkin pie.
It'll nearly be like a picture print by Currier and Ives.
These wonderful things are the things we remember all through our lives!

Just hear those sleigh bells jing-a-ling, ring-ting-ting-a-ling, too.
Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you.
Outside the snow is falling and friends are calling, "Yoo-hoo!"
Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you.

i love this song.... =)

This girl posted at 11:35 PM

Sunday, November 21, 2004

it's over!

am i glad....

first and foremost i must thank the Lord...for giving me so much strength to last so long...for being to help me focus when my thoughts stray...

thanks go to my family..and my mum..for your tonics...i don't know how they help..but they do....and aunt..for your neverending supply of fruits...keeping my immune system in check...

thanks to the girls from church...who messages me...reminding me to turn to God and be strong...your timely encouragement and Bible verses have helped so much.

thanks to my friends...who have kept me sane by talking rubbish to me....whether in school or msn....every night you never fail to brighten my spirits...

post exams have been wonderful...had the most beautiful night yesterday....*smiles*

today was a nice day...went to teacher wati's wedding...my first malay wedding! and it was so sweet of her to invite us the volunteers...oh she's a special ed teacher at autism children's centre. it was an eye opener..and she looked beautiful...=) congrats teacher wati!

then went orchard to meet with friends...from CAS to buy our CDs...Clay's new album...Merry Christmas with Love...just listened to it...it's very good....sigh....feeling so proud of him....

one year in the business...numerous accolades..rolling stones cover...triple platinum debut album sales...so many magazine covers...appearances on TV shows (till i can't count)...performances at major awards shows...billboard music award, american music award...performances at events, riding floats on parades...radio interviews...2 full solo tours..one together with kelly and one with the american idol season 2 finalists...a huge fanbase in the states, canada, singapore, hongkong, m'sia..and believe it or not...south africa and some ulu-ated countries here and there...

now...a new album out in stores...a new book coming out..(its out in the states..but kino hasnt put it up on the shelves...aahh!!!!) titled Learning to Sing - Hearing the Music in Your Life...An Inspirational Memoir by Clay Aiken...=) oo....and his handprint has fetched the highest bid for mcdonald's charity - US$15,000....i wonder who paid that whooping amt!!! most importantly...he's been named UNICEF's ambassador for education...the youngest ever named...

now..poor baby is sick! down with flu, fever and gasp! vocal chord damage!! sorry..a tad too dramatic...but its scary...look what happened to julie andrews....get well soon clay!

anyway 4 of us spent the entire sunday afternoon talking...about everything from clay's music, clay's book, clay's relationship with his father and stepfather, clay's clothes...to anthropology...political sciences...races...differences between westerns and easterns (?)...it's amazing how one journalist, one international sch student, one NTU student and one VJ student can spend the entire sunday afternoon talking....

christmas is one month away! saw the christmas lights yesterday night...beeaauutiful....and the busking atmosphere added to the festive occasion...

somehow it's quite sad that some forget the true meaning of christmas...celebrating the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ...not christmas shopping...not christmas presents..stockings..santa...sleigh rides...christmas puddings..not even christmas trees...

Joy to the World by Clay Aiken

Album: Merry Christmas With Love

Joy to the world
The Lord is come
Let earth receive her King
Let every heart prepare Him room
And heaven and nature sing
And heaven and nature sing
And heaven and heaven and nature sing

Joy to the earth
The Savior reigns
Let men their songs employ
While fields and floods
Rocks, hills, and plains
Repeat the sounding joy
Repeat the sounding joy
Repeat, repeat the sounding joy

No more let sins and sorrows reign,
Nor thorns infest the ground;
He comes to make His blessing flow
For as the curse is found,
For as the curse is found,
For as, for as the curse is found.

He rules the world
With truth and grace
And makes the nations prove
The glories of His righteousness
And wonders of His love
And wonders of His love
And wonders, and wonders of His love
And wonders, and wonders of His love

This girl posted at 10:38 PM

Monday, November 15, 2004

I have written to you, fathers,
           Because you have known Him who is from the beginning.
        I have written to you, young men,
           Because you are strong, and the word of God abides in you,
           And you have overcome the wicked one.

1 John 2:14

Little children, it is the last hour; and as you have heard that the Antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come, by which we know that it is the last hour. They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would have continued with us; but they went out that they might be made manifest, that none of them were of us.

1 John 2:18-19

But you have an anointing from the Holy One, and you know all things.

1 John 2:20

Lessons from ypg from Pastor Mark.....

The antichrist is already among us...one of us...deceiving us....trying to influence us....

it's a scary thought....

but with knowledge of God's word...we can discern right from wrong..truth from lie....

and with the Holy Spirit residing in us and me...there's nothing to be afraid of.

must increase knowledge of God's word... slowly and steadily....

This girl posted at 1:21 AM

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Journey
by Corrinne May
Music and lyrics by Corrinne May

It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
and I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide

It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to You

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know You'll be standing by my side

It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to You

Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will You break down these walls and pull me through?

'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to You

This girl posted at 11:57 PM

Sunday, November 07, 2004

cannot concentrate anymore...

had a few musings...they're biophysical chem related...haha~ i'm seriously losing it... i'll make it understandable for the non science friends of mine...have been doing that quite often...explaining pancreas cancer...lung cancer...hormones...smoking...

the first law of thermodynamics states that the internal energy of a system is the sum of its potential and kinetic energies. or more simply... it's a sum of heat and work done. so that's it people...get energised by getting hot..and doing a lot of work... this doesn't make sense..

since when does physics makes sense?

the second law of thermodynamics states that the total entropy of the universe increases. entropy is a measure of disorder/randomness...so you can say our universe tends towards chaos. so if u have a messy room.... it's the universe powers of physics at work...tell your mum that when she screams at you to clean up...

robbie williams sings.."let love be your energy". the law of conservation of energy states that energy can neither be created nor destroyed. it can only be changed from one form to the other. so if love is energy, it is constant..and flowing through our universe. but why do i have a sneaky feeling it's leaking to..let's say...callisto? (ps. callisto is a satellite revolving around the planet jupiter)...

what the world needs now is love...is love..sweet love...but can you feel the love tonight? there's so much hatred, wrath and violence in this world...where did all the love go?

fellow clayfriend of mine posted these links on our forum boards...

No longer a Christian
p/s don't let the title fool you...

17 reasons not to slit your wrists by Michael Moore

link to the daily mirror article..a good read..totally slammed bush...scroll till you see it...

for all the kerry/edwards supporters or anti-bush people out there... michael moore is a genius... yes bush won....argh.... americans seem to always vote for the other person...clay vs ruben...kerry vs bush... after all bush has done...they want him to stick around...give power to the most powerful man on earth? to catalyse more destruction, death and wars? and delusional WMDs? (i told u i was losing it...)

woohoo..i'm so optimistic...

ETA: sensitive topic...disclaimer...views presented on this page are solely those of the author and do not represent those of her affiliated organizations.

This girl posted at 11:41 PM

Saturday, November 06, 2004

studying,.....

again....

it's exactly like the As...just less papers...but info...is about the same....

it's just bad...the first paper...modern biology....first question...what are europa and callisto....

what in the world............how am i supposed to know?? that horrid first lecture on search for extra-terrestrial intelligence crap???

the rest....just like those biology common tests back in tj....yes yes.....

4 more to go....when will it end?

cannot wait for the holidays....

talking to samuel about guys who hit girls...boyfriends who hit their girlfriends....husbands who hit their wives...and some women just take it as it comes...silently...unrestrained...

WHY??????

guys...why do u have violent tendencies? all those PS and xbox?? why do u hit girls that u love? if u're drunk..shame on you...

girls...why don't you say something or do something? unless he threatens to kill you if u tell anyone (in which case the more u shld tell)..then shame on you....

this is a thorny issue....but not of greater importance than the laws of kinetics and rate of reactions and michaelis-menten kinetics....

later...

This girl posted at 11:59 PM