Saturday, July 15, 2006

lights will guide you home.

i love my ipod. =)

i have had the most tiring week ever. every night i sleep 5 hours. every morning i drag myself up very very reluctantly at 615am for work. i go to school and crap with my fellow attach-ees at our own special room, i read mags, books, sit on the Osim massage chair iMedic at the staff lounge and read papers. i sit in classes observing how my teacher-mentors teach biology and math (my math teacher-mentor taught in my sec school while i was there). my biology mentor is a nice lady who is a really good teacher. on friday i only have 1 period so i was so tired i fell asleep on the sofas. as in really really fall asleep. my other friend slept on soundly beside me. (good thing the doors and windows can be closed and we don't have to sit at the staff room). we all go for brunch/lunch at the canteen where food is miserable but really cheap. the most expensive dish is only $1.50. then we leave school between 2-230pm except friday.

then i go home and check emails and run errands and just rest for awhile or take a nappie before meeting some people at night. there was a homecoming party for sam and linhui with the hall ppl at settler's cafe. had boys hostel session and met sam to hear his FOC stories which are pretty horrifying. there was our CSR conference rehearsal and tech run.

i seriously need sleep.

today was our conference, which despite all things, turned out ok. heh i really prayed that the event will go well because we were plagued by sooo many problems and my poor project director was so stressed and it didn't help that i was on attachment and had a stupid social and emotional learning workshop to attend on fri afternoon till 6pm, organized by MOE.

now i get a taste of what my life is gonna be in future. i'll be in school till late. i'll have church commitments. i'll have a social life. a love life. family. school and work. workshops and things to mark. meetings and counselling students. CCA stuff to take care of. and voluntary activities too.

what's even worse is that the social and emotional learning workshop wasn't even remotely useful because it was just putting a concept that was already practised by some teachers into formal words and given a fancy name and revamped and re-marketed. but it was interesting to get to know more about the teachers in the school when we see their lighter side. we were all in groups and had discussion and we had games too! haha. some teachers are really hilarious.

CSR (corporate social responsibility) conference was an eye-opener and another of my many chances to network and get to know people from all walks of life. i've listened to many distinguished speakers talk about the CSR situation in singapore (and how dismal it is) and in the asia-pacific region and in the world. it was an inspiration but sadly i can't undertake anymore projects etc. if not i'll just crumble under all the weight.

today in church we continued talking about faith. this time, about humility. a really BIG concept but yet at the same time so humbling and small. the issue of humility vs pride. where us Christians are also harrassed by Pride itself when we live out our lives. we become judgemental and defensive and everything goes downhill from there. it's not easy. 'cos the root of Pride is Self. and it should never ever be about self.

(incidentally during CSR conference we talked about the fact that "the business of business is NOT business" and it isn't about profits and it shouldn't be all about profits. it's about being a socially reponsible organisation that cares for the less fortunate, the environment, the animals or even the homo sapiens ie. in sweatshops)

it's time to start cultivating great faith consciously. =)

This girl posted at 10:46 PM